|Image by Allie Brosh, again.|
It’s been about a year since I wrote a guest post for LtaYL that seemed to resonate with a lot of people. I thought now would be a good time to look back on that post and see if I’d been taking my own advice. We’re always better at dishing it out than taking it, right? Well, here goes.
Do I still believe everything I wrote a year ago? Almost all of it. So if you didn’t read it, do, and then do that stuff I said to do (or not do, as the case may be). Then give yourself permission to follow a bunch of librarians who Do Cool Stuff because that’s how you learn about the cool stuff that’s out there in the world of librarianship to do. Just don’t judge yourself against these people. [Editor’s Note: Really. Don’t.] And give yourself another high five or hug or whatever, because I still and will always think you’re awesome! (Librarians are the best, really.)
Did I live by my own advice this past year? Oh hell no! I try. But I also listen too often to the voice in my head that says I should be doing more, I should be doing better, I should be doing whatever I’m not currently doing... heap it all on me please, I can take it!
But honestly, I can’t do all the things. Nobody can. I do some things really really well, but when I’m juggling too much I let some of the balls drop. What did I do this year that I’m proud of?
- I led my library through a strategic planning process with a limited time frame and a pretty damn good end result.
- I presented at a conference in the UK and met some of the most awesome librarians in the world.
- I finally made myself a website and started a self-mentorship toolkit so people (like me) without official mentors can DIY their way through the transition into librarianship. If that’s you, I hope you find it helpful!
- I participated in one of ACRL’s Immersion programs on library assessment and I beefed up the role assessment plays in my library. Right now I’m wrapping up a Kindness Audit.
- I wrote some stuff for legitimate journals: a guest column that just came out and a book review that’s in the cue to be published sometime this year.
Those are the biggies that come to mind right now. I also served on some highly active committees at the university and state level, and I did my best to make the world of librarianship a better place. I shared lots of cat photos for the greater good of mankind. But, since we’re in a no-judgement zone here (I’m making that up so I’ll feel better about sharing- I’m sure some of you are going to be Judgy McJudgerpants and I can’t stop that so go right ahead!), I’ll let you in on some things I didn’t do. Here I go breaking the rules of the internet; I know you’re not supposed to admit any flaws online because here we’re all perfect, but:
- I’m behind on a writing project with one of my committees. This is one of those things I always have good intentions of catching up on, but time keeps sneaking on and I haven’t caught up yet. (Sorry, committee!) This one haunts me a bit because I hate letting down people who are depending on me, so I write it on my to-do list almost every day.
- I’m ABT on a second master’s degree and I decided that I’m not finishing it. Really. (Before you try to encourage me to finish, know that I sleep a lot better at night than I did before I “gave up”. And being 7 ½ months pregnant, I really value what little sleeping I do at night.) I learned a lot about higher education and college students and assessment along the way, and I value that knowledge.
- I’m sure I sucked at some other smaller things. If you know me and you’ve got things to add to this list, by all means let me know.
Those are pretty big balls to drop. (Sorry, extending the juggling metaphor, please don’t try to visualize that!) Maybe if I’d taken on less I could have managed to keep up with my thesis and the group article. Maybe I could have managed my time better. Maybe I could have worked more hours.
Or maybe I’m human, like everyone else, and it’s okay that we don’t always accomplish everything we want to accomplish. Maybe it’s in our nature to be a little too ambitious sometimes. Maybe I have some things to learn about how to manage my workload.
What am I trying to say here? I’m saying it’s okay to try to do all the things, but it’s just as okay that you just can’t. We all try to do our best. I want to make an impact in the library world, but more importantly I want to do my job well so I help my colleagues and our patrons out.
That’s what I aim for every day, and it’s the yardstick I’d like to be measured by. Ginger Williams: good librarian. Helpful. Makes my life better by being in it.